My failures

Well I haven't been on here for a while.
Basically I have fell back into my bad eating habits and I was to embarrassed to write about it.
I felt like a complete hypocrite and failure.
I got to a comfortable spot and decided it wasn't that big of deal if I ate chips or cookies on a regular basis.
It's a struggle for me.
I think I have gained about 6 lbs back.
I am a complete believer that sugar is addicting.
And at the moment I am an addict.......again!
I have started drinking wine at least 3-4 nights a week.
This is the biggie!
Alcohol just makes everything spiral.
I tell myself it's ok to eat whatever I want after I've had a glass or two.
Then the next day I feel puffy and bloated, don't want to go to the gym, and if I'm lucky I don't have a headache!
It's better if I just stay away from it or at least limit it to once on the weekends!

So I need to get back on the fitness train.
I was happier and felt better about myself when I was eating healthy and working out regularly.
I have been thinking of doing the Advocare 24 day cleanse but man it's expensive. 
I even get a discount and I still think it's expensive.
But I heard from many people that it's worth it, so will see.
If your interested in it click on this Link to see details

I need to get back on a workout routine.
It's a simple fact with me that I obviously need a plan to stick to if I'm going to get my booty back on the workout train.

Well I want to say the holidays completely destroyed me and blame this all on them.
But the reality is they didn't.
This is all on me and I am taking complete responsibility for my actions and bad choices.
So time to get back on track and I have to do that one day at a time.

I'm not a failure I'm human just like everyone else but I need to own my choices!

Peace,
Shelby

Thank you!

I have only told a few of my friends and family about this blog. I don't know why I'm so afraid to let them in on my little secret. Well I do know why. I don't want to be judged. It's scary putting yourself out there for strangers to listen but it's even scarier for me for people I actually know to read this. I know that they should all be supportive but honestly I'm not sure if they all will be.  Some will think I'm stupid and that I look fine and most probably won't care which is fine by me. I know it's just a fear. I know my friends and family will support me. Like I said it's just scary. I've never been this honest in my life and it feels great. I don't think a lot of my friends and family know how much I have struggled with myself in the last 3 years. It's not their fault they all have their own lives and own struggles, plus I've been living in a foreign country and have seen them all not even a handful of times. My husband has always been supportive. And he hasn't been afraid to tell me to do something about myself if I'm not happy. I love him! And I know I'm the only one that can do anything about it, and that my friends can be a really hard pill to swallow!

I don't consider myself over weight but let's face it I could definitely stand to shed a few pounds. And I want everyone to know the whole point of all this is to get healthy and fit. I have two kids and a husband that I want to be healthy and happy for. I want to show my kids what it's like live healthy and hopefully it won't be a challenge for then to live like that in the future. I have a lot of fat stored in my stomach area I really need to get off.  This excess storage puts me at greater risk for diabetes, high blood pressure, and stroke. You might be laughing thinking it won't affect me now because I'm young but if I don't take care of it now my fear is it will only add to that whole middle age spread thing that's supposed to happen:) And that puts me at more risk when I get older. So why not take care of it now. Why not set myself up for a better future.

I am a stay at home mom and since my gym has a nursery this is the perfect time in my life to be the me I want to be. I have no more excuses. And to be honest excuses only end up making me feel more depressed at the end of the day. The changes I've already seen in myself in the last 4 weeks are amazing. I wish I would have picked up some weights a long time ago. I'm writing this blog for fun and if anyone wants to follow and maybe get a little inspired by it great, if not that's ok too. This is going to be a journey, my journey and I can't wait to see where it takes me. And if you want to join in the ride great!

A big thanks to all my friends and family that have read this and continue to. Your support means the world to me! Especially you B. Love you all! And don't be afraid to post comments. I'd love to hear any supportive words you have.

Peace,
Shelby

A Little About Me

10.12.2014

My first post hmmmm....I had thought of so much that I was going to say and now that it's time to write my mind goes blank.  Not surprising:)  Maybe it's a sign I shouldn't start this but oh well I'm going to anyway:)

First off I'm going to say that this is my blog and I'm writing about me.  No haters!  I am who I am and if you don't like you don't have to read it go some where else!

I am a stay at home mom.  Not the direction I saw my life going in but I am so blessed to be able to watch my little monsters grow every day.  They are amazing!  My husband works hard so this is possible.  I love him soooo much!  Staying home is not easy at all.  It's by far the hardest job I've ever had.  I know a lot of women would go nuts staying home and I think I did after the first 3 months.  But I gained my insanity and got the hang of it.  But it's still a challenge everyday.

We actually just moved back to the US from living abroad for 3 years in Germany.  Man were we ready to be back in the good old US of A.  I think after you leave abroad you really have a different appreciation for the red, white, and blue!  I grew up in Iowa.  GO Hawks!  I never pictured myself living in the south but I will say NC has been pretty great thus far.  It's not exactly what I thought it would be.  I was secretly hoping for more cowboy boots and southern accents.  The boots have been a little disappointing but the accents are HAMAZING!  Love it!  Now I just need to pick one up.

I'm a pretty average person I would say.  I have the same struggles everyone else does.  I've always struggled with my weight and I hope to document me getting my butt back into shape.  I've tried a lot of different things to lose weight but never showing the world.  I am hoping to get some support from all the wonderful people out there and maybe motivate a few other people to do the same.  Damn it's hard I know but it's time to make a change.  I complete lifestyle change.  I think I'm finally ready:)