It's a constant struggle with needle on the scale.
I wish I could snap my fingers and BAM, new me, but I know that's not gonna happen.
I feel great and my clothes fit different but these last few weeks been a struggle.
I know that losing weight is a process but I want to speed up that process. I want to put on my pants and POOF they fall back off.
I know that the weight on the scale isn't that most important thing in my journey.
I'm more focused on getting my muscles back and being solid, not soft and skinny.
But like I've said before I was shooting for 140lbs.
At this pace I'm gonna be on this journey for a long time.
I definitely think I may need to reevaluate that goal.
Yesterday I put on my jeans then my belt and I was a whole belt loop smaller.
How awesome is that!
These are the little things that I hope will keep me motivated because the scale isn't so far.
I was talking to my husband this morning and telling him that normally I would have quit this process a long time ago.
His comment was I would have been on second diet by now.
I had to laugh because it's so true.
I've been a weight loss journey so many times that it's a little depressing to think about.
To know I've let myself go so many times after all the hard work I've done has made me realize that maybe there was another problem.
I've never been 100% secure with who I am.
I've always been emotional and let other people's opinions and thoughts matter way to much.
These last couple weeks I've really been working on myself along with the weight and it's a challenge.
There's so much negativity out there and I've over it.
I don't think weight loss is a fix all in my world but are some many things I deal with on a daily basis and I can't wait till worrying about my weight isn't one.
Everyday I'm feeling more confident and caring less what other people think of me.
If you don't love me for me I don't have time for you.
It is what it is!
On to week 2!!!!!!
Here's some random pics of my last 3 years in Europe. I'm blessed!
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